The second step, is 'came to believe that a higher power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity'
Being not of a religious background, I had to do some research, and speaking with other members of Al-anon. I know what I believe. I just don't know what that means, exactly..
There is no heaven or hell in my spirituality, despite what I scream out when I'm angry. The way I see it, as humans, we set forth on our travels making good and bad choices, and it's those choices we make that dictate how the world treats us. That I'm pretty certain of. So, this means I know that there is something out there giving me choices to make. To be positive, to live positive and make choices that represent the positivity, will bring about positivity in my life, and more choices that will bring about even more good in myself, my life, and the world in general.
I think I trust that if I continue to make good choices, the positive energy will lead back to a sane place in myself. Perfect.
I can handle this step. This is not god at all for me, lets for the sake of this journey call the 'Higher Powers that be' HP. And you know what else? I don't need your 'God' if my HP is doing the same kind of things.. and I can DEFINITELY live with that idea.