Welcoming myself back

Been a while since I posted, and it shows in my personal life. Truthfully, i forgot the password and the email address, and used it as an excuse to not write it out. Well, i need it write it out. I have found myself lost and confused, and it seems that i might not be working my program to its full potential. My husband no longer has a program, and he is no longer sober. I have a lot of work to do, and I am starting at facing reality. The rose coloured glasses are off, and I'm finding it hard to accept. I am finding myself lost in despair and I know I need to up my meetings, and also, to blog a whole lot more.